A New Sense of Self
Dear Spirit to Spirit friend,
I was on a Zoom call with some friends the other day. Several friends were speaking about how ungrounded and unfocused they felt since their in-the-world life patterns and activities had abruptly ended four months ago.
I would imagine that most of us can relate to this in some way. Perhaps a kind of lostness, not sure who we are, what we are doing in our lives. Noticing how, in being forced during this time to let go of our outer activities- which we may have felt defined us- we feel plunged into a not-sureness of who we are and why we are.
Perhaps you've been feeling this way. As if the anchor that had grounded you in your life has been yanked out and life is up in the air right now...and you with it.
"If everything I have come to think of as "me/my life" is no longer the way I have known it to be...then who am I and how and where do I find ground, stability, a sense of self?"
When the outer world seems upside down and unfamiliar, as it does now, and we feel as if
we have no sense of our place in the world, we may be at a doorway of a personal/spiritual opening, which, if embraced, can be an opportunity for transformation.
This time of pandemic has encouraged us to slow down, be more still, be more contemplative, and reflect on who we are and what our lives are about. It has invited
us to open to that which is deeper in us- the Stillness/Consciousness that is- and the opportunity is present to experience ourselves in ways that we may never have before.
Relaxing into the place in us that is always present, available, and unchangeable, may open for us a more grounded sense of who we are and reveal a rootedness that is always in us at this deeper level. Our spiritual root.
So that... like a sailboat, with its rudder deep beneath the surface currents of the ocean, we can feel more anchored and steady. Leaning, perhaps, from side to side- sometimes even dramatically- but always rooted in the deeper context and Consciousness of who we truly are.
Then the inquiry: "who am I in the deepest part of myself, who am I now in my life, what is essential, what is my purpose now?" can guide us, perhaps, into a surprising, unexpected, and even joyous new direction.
Maybe this is how we will begin to experience a new sense of self, whether we are living
"at-home" lives right now or returning to more "in-the-world" lives. Living from the deeper spiritual root of who we truly are... that is in us and with us...always.
In Gratitude & Love, Joanna